If the icon says "Sunny Mood," please ignore it. I've been wrestling with DA's icon menu, seems to be stuck - no idea if it's a problem with my laptop or if it's DA being it's usual wonderful self.
I am incredibly sad today. It came from stupid arguments on a fan forum regarding, of all things, religion. I mean, I understand that not everybody believes the same way, and that not everybody even understands the idea of believing, and that I'm taking things entirely too personally, but...
I just feel like... I wonder if believing in a Higher Power makes me a waste of life. It seems that no matter "how" one believes, that "only the gullible believe in something they cannot see, even vaugely."
I also wonder if this whole "gulliblity" of mine makes me a waste of life. You know, impeding human progress because I'm one of those who believe in something that "humanity does not need anymore and is determental."
I already feel like I'm waste of rescources in other ways, I really don't need to feel like I'm one for this. It's like, it doesn't even matter "how good I am despite my religion" -- It's not even about one single religion (like Christianity) I just feel like I've run into people who think that "believing in God/the supernatural in any way" = cultist, or bringing down society. I'm not even expecting anyone to understand the whole "faith" concept, this didn't come about from anyone trying to convert anyone else.
And no one likes being told that the world would be better off without them (even if it might be the truth).
I cannot shake my beliefs, even if I really, really wanted to, and sometimes, I want to. I am a weak person with needs that others do not have. They may not make sense, but...
I'm just feel horrifically sad right now.
I popped in a tape of Trigun today, and even Vash the Stampede couldn't cheer me up.
Maybe praying to my delusion will make me feel better.
In art news, I'm working on a cast picture painting of the main characters of my novel, "The Featherchaser."
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Devious Comments
You, of all people, Shadsie, listening to /the world/..? Honestly. *Smacks* Stoppit. Now.
If you want to know, I believe in a 'higher power' as well.
Frankly, the things you are saying here are making me really livid -at the world. (Like I didn't already hate what humanity is in general enough. ><; ) It makes me livid -and extremely distraught. At the state the world is in; that you would enter such a debate and find no one else who can share your views is just really...really frankly it breaks my heart.
That people have no faith. In anything.
That there are so many people who are atheist or agnostic and-..
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I'm not sure what fan forum this occurred on, (not Trinut, I hope?
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That Vash the Stampede will not die of any bullet wound,
But will in fact die of clogged arteries and liver disease.
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That Vash the Stampede will not die of any bullet wound,
But will in fact die of clogged arteries and liver disease.
It's a tough time for anyone, Christians and non-Christians alike, to believe in the supernatural. For some reason or another it's become popular to be cynical and disdainful of such beliefs. But just because it's popular doesn't mean it's right. And what do they know, anyway? Once they've been to the edge of the universe and back, then I'll believe that what they say is right.
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well do I lie like a loungeroom lizard, or do I sing like a bird released?
You're not a waste of life. There's just no reasoning with them.
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Someone made a secret about creating a fake religion out of Pokemon (which was really funny! ) but, unfortunately, they included a stab at Scienology. Someone decided to be all "edgy" and make a point about stabbing on little-understood religions saying "If you had to pick something riduculous, why not the Bible?"
Ooh, boy. I saw the person's point, but was annoyed that they (if they had to make that kind of stab at all) that why weren't they more inclusive? (Scientology and Christianity are the two things that are the MOST bashed on that community. "I like rape-porn fanfic!" is perfectly acceptable and will get a lot of "Me toos!" but "I follow a religion" gets you lynched). And of course, the comments brought out some of the more... forceful? Militant? Athesits of the board to chime in about how utterly ridiculous Judiasm/Christianity/belief in God without scientific evidence were, anyway. I mean, basically saying we were all delusional, basically "Christianity=Scientology=all cults=all religion," and that anybody who followed it was a "gullible type," God being a "childish fear," equivalent of the monster under the bed...
And getting several things about Christianity (specifically) WRONGO but, I don't think the wanted to be corrected.
The disscussions are actually pretty interesting - I don't think anybody was trying to make a personal attack on people, it was all a civil affiar and I could imagine us all drinking tea or something, but... I don't think they meant to make anyone feel worthless and horrible, but they did.
I've atheist and agnostic friends who aren't like this, who are respectful, who understand that faith isn't the same as gullibility, stupidity or cultishness. I'm glad they keep me from developing sterotypes from dealing with people on these boards where something funny in fandom quickly becomes SRS BIZNZ.
I'd really like the thread to do so I don't have to reply to people... and I can just never go there again. I've found, in general, LJ fandom communities COMPLETELY SUCK.
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Scavengers:
They that hunt what is already dead
and take that which has already been taken.
[link] - Bone Art and High Fantasy.
So -pats on back- :3
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That Vash the Stampede will not die of any bullet wound,
But will in fact die of clogged arteries and liver disease.
YOU ARE TOO AWESOME! AND MAYBE YOU FAIL TO SEE IT!!!!
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Yeah, it's just... I wish people had more respect for one another, you know? I think people just love their sterotypes so much that when they run into someone who doesn't fit some of them, all they can do continue trying to fit that person into them or dismissing them.
And I'm damn sick of the whole "belief in God" by default = less intelligent, less capable, gullible, hateful, etc. idea. It seems to be the "cool" thing to believe nowadays, too.
I thank you for not being that way... I mean, it's people like you that *keep me* from thinking "Atheist = unimaginative, (holier)-than-though, pompous, mean." Considering some of the people I've dealt with, I could *easily* slip into that, but I know it's wrong and folks like you remind me of that.
Beliefs are a very personal thing and people are just too complicated to fit into "all = cult" and such that people try to do.
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Scavengers:
They that hunt what is already dead
and take that which has already been taken.
[link] - Bone Art and High Fantasy.
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